6/15/14: Is It All Downhill From Here?

     I woke up stressed, ate breakfast stressed, listened to music stressed, made some art stressed, walked around town stressed. There's absolutely nothing that is helping me get my mind off my girlfriend. The only good  part about today was getting a pair of Dr. Dre Studio Beats, which I'm super excited about! Now I can make music in surround sound and block all other noises while producing. 3 of my plans got canceled today, just my luck. I really want to text her, but I don't know what to say or what she'll say back, she probably doesn't care, she has more important stuff to deal with than me. Tomorrow I start training for the 5K, and it's one of my best friends birthdays! Another cool thing about today is the Cat I met, he was super friendly at first, but after a while he got agitated and started getting aggressive towards. I took a pic of him and sent him to my mom, and she told me, "That's the cat kicked our cats' asses!" Looks like he's pretty infamous around here. Also, HOW DO I GET MY MIND OFF THINGS I SHOULD BE GETTING OVER BY NOW. I feel like a mess, even though I cleaned my room today...

6/14/14: Just Waitin' and Waitin'

     So, a lot had happened during the day. I got picked up by my friend and we ended up going to a school to play wall ball, which apparently I'm not very good at. All they did the entire 3 hours I was with them was talk about what girl they had sex with recently, which honestly, sickens me (Maybe Im just jealous but eh)... In order to keep my mind more occupied to forget about my problems, I decided to hook up with my other friends and created a rap group, with me as the producer. I haven't decided what the name of the group is yet, but I'm trying to make the quality of our music at hybrid of amateur and professional levels. I was able to create 2 tracks in one day, which is a new record for my my workflow on Logic Pro X, music making isn't as easy as it's cracked up to be. Despite my new ambitious project, I haven't been abel to get my mind off my girlfriend (ex?) who I haven't talked to in a couple days, I keep expecting a call or a text, but nothing ever comes up on my phone from her. I don't want to text her first, I actually want to see if she cares, but at the same time I feel as though that's unfair. ugh, once again my mind is in a scramble. On monday I start my work-out routine to prepare for the 5K!

6/13/14: Feeling Indifferent

     The morning was pretty fun, I ended up spending the night at my friends house and woke up to the sound of the family arguing about the deliciousness of their eggs. When I woke up, My two friends and I ended up watching TED, which turned out to be a lot funnier than I thought it would be! I feel bad, because a lot of friends want to make plans with me, but I'm just one guy! They either end up getting mad or disappointed when I can't hang out with them, which is actually surprising to me, because I didn't think they actually cared. The life of a popular a boy is rough, I guess (Sarcasm)! I ended up going to one of the friends and we just chilled and got shrekked, which was pretty enjoyable. I texted my girlfriend that I loved her, but didn't exactly get the response I was hoping for, so I think I'll just refrain from texting her for a while, she seems busy. I wouldn't say that ruined my day, but it did keep me from being able to focus on other things. I think a good way to get my mind off things is good old fashion work outs. I'm going to be training for 5K, so that's cool!  While watching TED, I was still in the mood for Godzilla, so I ended up drawing him and Pac-Man on my drawing notebook, and I was impressed! So in the end, it was an okay day, if I hear from my girlfriend by tomorrow I'll be happy!

6/12/14: Bittersweet Improvements

     At first, the day really kicked my ass. I woke up fighting with my girlfriend, because about an hour after I updated my blog on June 11th, my girlfriend wanted to have a break. The breaks hard, but I know this is for the best of us. I spent a lot of the day depressed, just laying in my bed, in my own state of thought that the world hates me (Typical teenager here). I thought I wouldn't be able to get out of bed for weeks but soon enough my friend's mother offered to let come over and get my mind off things so soon enough I caved and went with them. We had an incredible time, we spent it just realizing inside, snacking, building Legos (Don't ask) and watching Godzilla 2000, which is a nostalgic classic to me! The generosity of my friend's family is unbelievable, they talked with me about my feelings and problems, and it really helped me vent my thoughts and concerns out of my head. I stayed up until about midnight, until my girlfriend (ex?) called me. I think both of us know how much we care about each other, and this rough patch just needs time, it gave me a sliver of hope. Although she was upset, I was able to make her feel better and I went to sleep feeling great that night!

6/11/14: A Not-So-Great Start

     Well, today kind of sucked. I was feeling drowsy literally all day, I haven't even gotten out of the house, even though I had plans with like 3 different people. The only good thing about today was the fact that I woke up to a text from my girlfriend, who I haven't gotten to see recently. We ended up getting into another argument, I feel like things always fall apart between, us, but I think the first month or so of a relationship is supposed to be rough, I can tell that things will get better, these things take time. at about 2 PM I decided to do something productive and started drawing, I was making one of the best drawings I had ever conjured up on a computer, and LITERALLY 2 SECONDS AWAY FROM SAVING, Flash CS5 fucking quit on me. After I saw the spinning wheel of death, I knew what my fate was. I leaned back, looked at the computer screen go black, and then I only sighed deeply (And then ranted about it here). The rest of the day I practiced piano, trying to get the hang of alternate chords because I'm trying to figure out how to play the chord progression for Origin by Savant (A REALLY GOOD SONG!). I was going to go out to a friends, but my mom is nowhere to be seen.. Maybe I should work on my online driver's course (or nah). This day could've been a lot better, that's for sure. I think all I need to do is get my girlfriend to not be so mad at me, then I might feel better. I WAS going to feel a hell of a lot better after I finished my drawing, but then the lord came unto thee and said "Nigga, I'm about to kick you straight in the John" and proceeded to kick at his full might. Because I stayed inside all day today, the only picture I ended up taking was a progress pic of the drawing I was making near the beginning before my project fucking croaked on me. Oh well,  all I'm looking forward to today is a text from my girlfriend that says "I forgive you.", but that's probably not going to happen tonight. Writing things down into this does help increase my memory of my day though, because in the end, this blog is for ME to remember my life from my perspective, not some social network's view on me.  Hmm... I think I'll go get McDonalds, that 'oughta' cheer me up! (And Besides, the picture I took of the drawing still looks good, and it wasn't even original artwork, just a trace. At the end of the day, I got some good practice =) )

6/10/14: Tomorrow Is The Start of it All!

Well, this is it. My life. I'm kind of on a quest to figure myself, keep track of my life, and the events that go by with it. I'm a really forgetful person, this blog is for ME. If someone were to stumble upon this, it wouldn't matter, I'm just trying to get a point across to myself and others that this blog is not meant to entertain you, but for you to learn more about me! This blog is a fresh start. I'm not going to be posting past pictures of myself. Why? because it's the past! I guess I'll upload photo's from my daily life, or maybe just ONE good picture! I'm posting here because I need a place to write down my thoughts, but unfortunately, I have terrible handwriting. I wouldn't be able to read half the things I wrote within a moth. Also, I'm not the fastest, typer, I guess I'm gonna have to work on that too. On my blog journal, I am going to be posting about things that happened in my day, things that I've learned, and my own personal feelings about things. Don't get my wrong, I'm not this super smart egotistical maniac that wants to shove my opinion on right and wrong in your face, I'm just here to write about myself (Self-centered much?) I hope I don't forget about this blog. I won't write about today, it's just embarrassing, I think I'll start my journey on this blog tomorrow, don't want to get too overwhelmed. I'm not here to introduce who I am, but let the myself, a friend, or a reader find out who I am through my daily blog entries, without telling some flat boring story like "Oh, I'm Justin Wallace and I was able to poop in the dark until I developed a great fear of ghosts around 11."
Maybe I'll end up coming up with a cool slogan by the time I start really getting into this thing.